Hope Keeps You Alive

I don’t even know how to say this. This is not a joke, it’s not a poem, it’s not a piece of fiction……my wife has cancer again.

This is the 3rd time now, and the mass inside her chest is even bigger than the last time.

To be honest it’s devastating. We are both devastated, and yet……a nurse recently told us,

“Hope keeps you alive.” And that’s so true….we have seen it many times.

I ask for your positive thoughts and prayers, for the one I love.

           

Writing © Copyright 2020, ancient skies

P.S. I will post some older work for awhile. It will help me to focus and remain active. If you leave messages I will eventually see them.

Yes, we will be taking good care of each other.

Peace.

 

The Survivor

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She really did feel like the ocean now, expanding, having been washed

on the inside of her body, and free, minus some foam here and there, with

fear lingering, and her hair gone. Her spirit was stronger now than ever,

and her faith lifted her, so she often sang

the Psalms as intended.

      

And he was always there with her, by her side determined to fight

chasing away the grimace of death, they often talked

as two spirits becoming one, healing each other.

and walking now along the beach,

grateful for the waves.

     

Poetry and Image © Copyright 2016, Ancient Skies

Thank You!

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My Love and I, would like to thank everyone for the wonderful birthday greetings, and well wishes, that you blessed her with! Wow, what a great party. She was so blessed!

I also wanted to let you know that she wants to respond to the messages herself. Yay! It may take her a bit, and it may be tomorrow, because the last time I spoke to her she was heading out the door.

I know I brag about her a lot, how beautiful she is, how much we love each other, and even her skin. It’s because I have seen her come so far! When she had the cancer years ago, is was not tumors she was dealing with, it was a blood cancer.

The treatment involved huge doses of chemo, in order to kill off her bone marrow, and then give her a bone marrow transplant. The chemo actually burnt her skin from the inside out and turned her very, very dark – her skin was almost blue-black.

Did you know your skin is an organ? Yep, it is. My Love got a disease after the transplant, which can be deadly if not treated, and it did a horrible number on her skin, it was a living nightmare. Her skin was a lot like elephant skin.

That is why when I look at her today – I do rejoice! And her skin is soft and beautiful now. We focus on the future, walking together, as we thank God….. for the healing…. and the restoration.

My Love’s birthdays are a really big deal at our house. Thanks for celebrating with us.

     

Writing and Image © Copyright 2016, Ancient Skies

Happy Birthday, My Love!

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Please join me in wishing Happy Birthday, to the most wonderful, beautiful, and courageous person I have ever met – My Love, my wife! She is the one I write about.

Now we don’t put actual dates on the internet, but today is the day I’ve chosen to celebrate here. And she does check my posts, so she will see your well wishes.

For those that are new to my blog, my wife is a cancer survivor, and with what she has been through, she is a walking miracle. Life has been tough over a period of years, but we keep pushing through – together and holding hands. Loving each other is the key to courage.

And why did I choose the yellow daffodil above? The daffodil is one of the first flowers to appear in spring, and is a sign of hope. Yellow is also my favorite color on her. She has a beautiful brown skin.

Happy Birthday, My Love!

         

Writing and Image © Copyright 2016, Ancient Skies

Of Wind and Confidence

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As ropes pulled on old wood

creaking,

giving way to canvas flaps

the wind folded, and filled

the sails.

The ship leaned

to the port side.

       

And she held his hand, and the railing with the other,

she thought there was such strength

in his heart, as her straw hat blew off, and fell

into the water, he didn’t miss a beat

covering her

with his baseball cap.

      

Smiling, he leaned over and kissed her lips

whispering “My reward?”.

as the ship sliced the waves,

they surrendered.

     

As he looked forward, she said,

“Go ahead sweetheart….I love to watch you in the wind…”

      

So as the man of her dreams stood in the bow

with his arms extended,

conquering worlds with his spirit free,

a smile appeared, covering her face.

       

She understood

what trusting was now,

and she was no longer afraid,

to live.

       

Poetry and Image © Copyright 2016, ancient skies

Peace and blessings to everyone.

“When we love people, we give them hope.”

Life Giving

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A woman with no hair will not let you see her wound

as she sharpens her sword against despair

she learns, she lives for the shield

of encouragement. Our tears

our prayers, give

her strength

and a hug is

life giving.

     

The greatest warriors are those that love

not counting the cost of their tears.

Never withhold encouragement

from the warrior in

the fight.

      

Poetry and Image © Copyright 2016, ancient skies

Peace and blessings to everyone.

“When we love people, we give them hope.”

Sunset on the Water

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This particular sunset was a victory really,

speaking to her there was a beauty

worth fighting for, that she would not die

and her love would always be there.

As the two of them watched the water,

she knew that trust was worth more

than diamonds, more than water sparkling

and most importantly God had not

abandoned her. She knew the two of them

would raise their children, according

to plan. She would see the wedding

of at least one. Deeply moved by the sun

she took his hand in hers

and breathed

a sigh of relief.

By the way it was their anniversary, and this was years ago.

             

Poetry and Image © Copyright 2016, ancient skies

Peace and blessings to everyone.

“When we love people, we give them hope.”

Looking Forward

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Like many of us, I am striving to be free from living in the recent past, and from reliving the grief I have experienced. I still grieve sometimes, not realizing how deep it goes. My Love went through a terrible cancer, it was a blood cancer, and even though she is better now, it sometimes still shakes me to the core. She sneezes and I start to worry. She had severe health problems for almost 10 years. This was before, during, and after the cancer treatments. You can’t go through something like that, and not be affected by it.

One of the reasons I write so much about hope, is that I am speaking to all of us, especially if we have walked through the fire. I try every day to look forward. Every day, every moment, I have with My Love is a treasure. You can see that in my writing, and I believe it is something very special.

Who we are, and our experiences, will come out in our writing for sure. So I ask for your understanding if you see some grieving here. I’m not looking for sympathy, but I wanted you to understand some of the internal workings of this writer. I’m looking forward, and I’m much stronger than I was. My wife and I help each other constantly, as we go forward together.

If you have any questions about how we got through our ordeal, or about how we are coping now, please feel free to write to my wife and I.

www.nicodemasplusthree@gmail.com

      

I wish you good health, and peace.

       

Writing and Image © Copyright 2016, ancient skies

Peace and blessings to everyone.

“When we love people, we give them hope.”

It Was the Blue

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The lighthouse drew us as we walked up the hill

do you remember our first trip to Maine?

It was the blue that spoke to us, gave us strength

bricks more solid than our faith, your skin

was still burned from the chemo but we were looking

forward, walking on the water, our spirits in the clouds.

I’ll never forget that lighthouse, your smile

and our hearts filled

with the ocean.

            

Poetry and Image © Copyright 2016, ancient skies

Peace and blessings to everyone.

“When we love people, we give them hope.”

Warriors in the Hospital

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If you go to a cancer ward,

any cancer ward,

you will find the bravest people,

on the face of the earth.

No armor, a broken shield,

hardly any weapons,

and yet, they fight every day,

not just the cancer,

but depression, fear, hopelessness,

fear of the unknown, and sickness.

Fighting to break a smile,

to have a glimmer,

of light. A future.

I once knew a woman,

who fought hard to live,

she fought hard for her children,

she fought hard for her husband,

and for herself.

Terrified,

but not crushed.

I don’t know why some live,

and others do not,

I will never know why,

If I can though, I will offer,

a smile,

a hand of friendship,

kind words,

strength,

to help them fight,

with strong armor,

and a new shield,

called hope.

With God’s help,

we can do this,

please pray for them,

pray for their strength,

in the midst of the battle.

Amen.

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Blessings to everyone and peace!

“If you love nature, you will love people.”

Poetry © Copyright 2015, nicodemasplusthree

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